eyes on fire

April 1, 2013 2:44 pm

"This is your life, and it’s ending one minute at a time."

Holy shit…

I’m 23, I’m a fucking adult. What am I doing with my life? I’m freaking out right now. There are so many changes I need to make. I’m so overwhelmed  and don’t even know where to start. I am better than this. It’s time to fucking grow up and start living up to my potential. 

March 4, 2013 4:01 am

Fucking circadian rhythm.

2:13 am

Tiny Vessels

I feel so out of control.

I’ve lost all sense of who I am and what I stand for. 

I feel completely alone and I’m terrified. I know I’m on a path of self destruction, but I have no idea how save myself. I hate this person I’ve become. 

January 28, 2013 1:56 am
Really, thank you. 

Really, thank you. 

December 14, 2012 2:46 pm
Going to Justin Bieber’s concert July 7th. And I couldn’t be more excited about it. :)

Going to Justin Bieber’s concert July 7th. And I couldn’t be more excited about it. :)

November 12, 2012 2:30 am

I want him back.

 I’ve been really fucking good at suppressing my feelings for the past month and half. But for the past couple of weeks I’ve been wondering if breaking up with John was a huge mistake.Seeing John tonight made me finally confront my feelings. 

I was so unhappy in Boone, so certain that John was the root of the problem. I wanted to be free, single, and able to do me. I’ve never been so fucking wrong. No one has ever loved me so unconditionally. I had never been happier. He is my best friend. I took him for granted. He had flaws, instead of looking at the big picture I focused on the bad. I was too busy blaming him to take a hard look at myself. 

Tomorrow he’s moving across the fucking country and he’s taking my heart with him. I don’t want space. I don’t want anyone else. I fucking want him and only him. When I think about the future, he’s by my side. One of those right person, wrong timing sort of things. He said he felt the same. But I’m so fucking terrified that I’ve lost him for good. I’d give anything to be back in Boone sleeping by his side.

What the fuck did I do? I hate myself. I’m so fucking stupid. And I have no one to blame but myself. 

October 28, 2012 3:25 am

Awkward moment when you can hear one of your roommates fucking.

October 27, 2012 11:31 pm

Awesome

I bought a $2 square on the football pool sheet at work today; won$50. First time winning anything, EVER! I am one happy biotch. :) Going out tonight even though I have to work at 8 am tomorrow… Wish me luck!

6:44 pm
I can’t wait, until my ears are large enough for these bad boys. 

I can’t wait, until my ears are large enough for these bad boys. 

November 30, 2011 2:05 pm

Ouch…